Day 3 & 4
“It is not the critic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at the best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat.”
Theodore Roosevelt “Citizenship in a Republic,”
Speech at the Sorbonne, Paris, April 23, 1910
Day 3: Dec 23rd 2008
The last 12 hours have been the craziest 12 hours of our lives. I think we all are frayed to the point of exhaustion. And yet and yet. There is a ray of hope.
The past twelve hours I think each one of us has felt more or less like this trip was a failure.
The past twelve hours I am pretty sure we have each doubted the strength of God’s commitment to us… (as though He might owe us anything.)
The past twelve hours we have looked for the miraculous as much as possible and every door has slammed on us… It seemed.
“O ye of little faith.”
Perhaps to me if God gave us an outright no I could in my mind count this trip, not as a failure in God’s big picture, but as a lesson, or God’s testing us out of a greater love. Nothing felt like a greater disappointment than to see our trip and plans cut so short at the gate of exit.
At this point each time we found tickets (that didn’t require an India visa, as we had exhausted our options there) we had the flight book up, or the price too high, or we would have to travel separately, or they were too late. Honestly we were ready to admit defeat. We discussed the implications of this many times, and spent hours in fervent Prayer late into the night. I am certain we were being fervently prayed for as well. While it is hard to think of another trip more fraught with difficulty in these days, we recognized that many servants of God have had far worse traveling difficulties. Specifically Paul was shipwrecked, and imprisoned, and yet he still persisted, and trusted God.
So we decided not to give up. We will wait and see what God does…
Day 4: Dec 24th 2008
Since we are a day behind we are going to catch you up on Christmas morning with the miracle of Christmas Eve. Merry Christmas to all our beloved friends and family!
Shepherd Ahlersfilmmaker, tired writer